Its cold here... *raining season* Since last night, rain is non-stop pouring at my place. So cold and it tempting me to keep sleep on my bed. However, I can't!! I need to get to work. Urgh...
Seem its not so busy at my workplace today, as usual I spent my time by reading some few article. Only a random reading. And there is one article I think kind of related with me. The title is "So Heartless: Why A Girl Turn So Cold After Experiencing Heartbreak". It was written by Rachel Tenn. I love some of her point. Actually all of it. After I experiencing few of broke up and lost my hope on someone, slowly it has made me become who I am today. Heartless especially towards a guy. And yes, I admit that I am now involved with "friend-with-benefit" relationship. I know what I'm doing right now is not right. But hey.. I just want to live my life.
For some reason, I should not doing this kind of relationship. Even my girl friends said so. They afraid that it might make me more smashed and worst. When I think deeply, yes, what they are saying is true. Honestly, I just hate being alone. I just HATE IT!
I do have friends but somehow I also need someone to pampered me, treat me passionately, care to me, love by someone and everything. I do heartless but at the same time I want attention from a man. Selfish right?
I don't know. Clueless.
To that someone, Thank you for always be there for me and always trying to make me smile and happy and yes I do happy when I'm with you. For a moment being, I have tonne of thing I want to share with you. But I need to keep it for a while. There will be a time and day I tell you. And I am sorry if I make you miserable or worried you to much.