Unhidden Pandora

Should i or not, Keeping this feeling? The sweetness and tenderness are slowly losing. Sound of laughing is more like a need to laugh A laugh that are force to do To satisfied others. The smiling.. Not as tender as before Feeling of like have to do is exist Its kinda distract. Should i or not, Leaving you? Feeling of loving you is one of the thing i treasure the most. Feeling of loving you is the best thing i ever had. You make me be myself. You bring out the best of me. Should i or not, Fear of losing you. Be the one side love, is the hardest. You may like me, but you may not love me as i do. I am not seeking for reward. I just want be appreciated. What should i do?

Hello!! So, how was your weekend guys? I'm pretty sure all of you have great weekends with family and friends. Or maybe some of you just chillax and relax alone at home after deal with tiresome weekdays with work. My last weekend was...erm.. i can said that it was a bit exhausted weekend. My family and I are busy on preparing a funeral for my late little baby cousin. He was died on 14th March midnight. He only 4 months. (T.T) His dead was caused by his heart are unable to pumped as normal people. Poor baby. Although he was live shortly in earth, but i believe his parents and grandmama and so do his aunt are terrible shock with his dead. He is just a baby. On the day we pay a last respect to little baby, we had a last prayer to him. And there was a reading state that " When a young people and the old one dies, there is a different. The olders we respect his/her dead because we ourselves known them for a long time being. And we respect their dead. But when the young one ...

Hello..  I'm wishing all of you have a good day today.  I am one of Sam Smith's fan.  I love most all of his song. His song, the lyrics, seriously... really hit myself.  All the meaningful lyrics, i can say it related to my life right now.  Be in complicated and secretive relationship with my part time partner, really make me in complicated. I can say it all blame on me. Why? Slow and slowly, i started to love him. The feeling slowly raising in my heart.  But, i can't ask him to leave his lover just for me. It is called SELLFISH!  Of course I want he be in my arm, close to my heart beat.. But what can i do? Except wishing him the best. I have to let this relationship just be ...just let it be.  :(  Regards,  Gracie

Hello everyone. Yeah..i know its been almost 2 weeks i did not updated my blog. Quite busy lately. Please forgive me..ok? Actually, there was a lot of thing happened to me. Family, workplace and my own personal issue. Hurm.. As the eldest siblings, i have to deal with a lot of responsibility. My others siblings which are my brothers, they are still schooling. Plus, my father are not working currently. I can say it quite hard for me. My point here is, this responsibility really really really need full commitment. Only now I realized it. (sigh)... I believe, every single person on this earth are having family problem. Except that,the situation is different. If it same, still it different. (do you know what i'm trying to say?) I have this one thinking that i should escape away for a while from this problem. But then, I think back. If i escape, then come back, still the problem is there. Thanks a lot to one of my dearest friend, Diana. She talk a lot to me about this matter. It i...

Hello there.  I think almost  a week I didn't update my blog. Its been a busy week for me. Busy getting money as some people said. I do but I don't want to be money's slave. Hoho.. I just want to have money for a living. A good live of course.  Okay. Last time I did post about my current situation with my part time partner. Erm..did I mention he cried because of me? Let me make it simple. I never expected that he would cried for me. I don't know either he cry because he love me or he worried he played with my heart. I don't know. I only know he cried. So suddenly!! I asked him why, then he said he cried because he feel guilty with me. He feel that he seem play with my heart. If he not say "Yes" when I'm offering my deal last time, he will not feel the guiltiness on me. Then, because I saw he cried, I tell him I can let him go he want to and I don't want he feel sad or sympathy on me. You want to know what his answer? He said "NO!. I ...

Hello there.  **deep sigh**  I don't know what should I do now. *sigh*  Last night my colleagues and I having beers together. We celebrated one of our field staff who had achieved his target this month. So, of course my part time partner was there too. After I helped them clear things up, both of us converse for a while. Then suddenly, he cried. OHMAIGAD!  He repeatedly saying that it his fault for having relationship with me. He looks like he is playing with my heart. He also said that he do have feeling on me but he confused. He confused because at the same time he love his girlfriend. I persuade him and tell him everything will be alright. It is not his fault at all. I am the one who starting this love game because of my selfishness. I greedy on seeking love. Only because of my emptiness, I had make him suffered like this.  I told him, I ready to let he go. But he refused. He still want with me. And I? I don't know. I had been thinking al...

Hello there. What a cold morning here. I am shivering! *sniff sniff* Last night, I was paused for a while on listening this on Lite FM. This song, the melody and lyrics so beautiful and of course I'm in love with this song. Why I love this song so suddenly? The reason is that yesterday I celebrated the 4th monthversary with him, my part time partner. I know it maybe too early for me to celebrated it. But why not? Its a way how I can attracted his feeling even though I know both of us will not be together in future. Despite, I would love to say my thankful to him as he has been by my side all this while. Thank you my baby sayang. He maybe worried if he let me down, but as I had promised to him and to myself, I trully understand our situation. As long as I am happy be with him and we create a lot of memories as we can, so that I can keep it for the rest of my life. Just a memories to be remember. Frankly speaking, I do miss him when he is not around. I do care a lot abou...